Tuesday, August 31, 2010

True Confessions

In true, true confession style I feel the need to confess a few things.
*This past weekend was full of birthday's. First my husband's on Saturday which lead in part to a few drinks at the local watering whole. A few for me, a few too many for him. Poor little dear had a tough day of recovery Sunday. Secondly my Dad's which lead to chocolate cake with chocolate frosting and in true Dad style chocolate ice cream. I was pretty good only having a small piece of cake and a scoop of ice cream.
*I did not get as many workouts in as I had planned. I would have liked to get a run in on Sunday and it never happened.
*I registered for the CCRR in Lansing the end of this month and never received confirmation that my registration was received, in fact my check was never even cashed, I was thinking about pushing my first official race off awhile if they didn't cash the check soon. But today I received the info I had been waiting for I am officially registered. I am so glad because I need that race day deadline to keep me on track.
Mostly I have been good lately, trying to watch what I eat and workout. I need to work a little harder at things, but at least I have not given up. How are you all doing??

Thursday, August 26, 2010


I am not a quitter. I never have been, I might stumble on the way to my goal, but eventually I get where I was headed. I feel that if you start something you need to finish it. Of course, there are exceptions like injuries and acts or God or nature, but I am talking about finishing things within your control. I teach this to my children as well, if we start baseball, we are going to finish the season, if you decide not to do it again next year that is fine, but for this year you are committed.
This is probably one of the biggest reasons I made myself go outside and run last night. I could have slunk back down to the basement and run on the treadmill, where I am happy and feel successful, but I didn't. I know that the only way I am going to finish my 5k in September is to get outside and run. To face the sun and the heat and, to be honest the fear, and to just run. It went much better than the day before. I adjusted my stride and my speed and I was able to run for over 4 minutes at a time. This is double what I was running the day before. I think it helped that I knew more what to expect from the run. The first day I went outside with the naive thought that it would be just like running on the treadmill, yesterday I knew it would not be. It would be harder. Nothing keeping pace for me, nothing but myself and the pavement. It was hard, but I pushed through, I kept putting one foot in front of the other. I know that each day will get better and I will get stronger and faster, my runs will get longer and my walking breaks shorter. I just need to remember that quitting is not an option. It would be easier to get back on the treadmill but that won't get me to my goal, being outside will.
I feel different after an outside run too. Oddly enough I don't feel as if I worked as hard. Strange because when I am running an interval I feel like my legs could not take another step, like I need to breath, but after a short walk I feel good again. I know it is just an adjustment and it will take some time. But I am confident that I will get where I want to be. I have to, my race is a month away.

Wednesday, August 25, 2010

Wednesday Check In Down and Dirty Week 4

Week 4, wow that went fast. Well here is the nitty gritty.
Starting weight: 210
Week 1: 207.1
Week 2:207.1
Week 3:206
Week 4:207.6
Total Loss: 2.4 lbs
Goal for Challenge: 10 lbs
Pounds to go: 7.6
Not exactly what I would call a success, but I am going to look at it as motivation. I had a tough weekend all the way around. I mean I had a great busy fun filled weekend, but that did not translate into eating right and exercising. I ate poorly and did not get in my workouts like a know I should have. There really is no excuse I was just busy spending time with my family and I didn't want to take the time out to spend on me. I am thinking now that that was not a good decision. Not only because I let my team down, but more because I need that time for me so that I can became the best me there is. Losing weight doesn't make me a better wife or mother, but it does give me more energy to keep up with the husband and kids. And it makes me feel better and more out going when I am not worrying about what everyone else is thinking when they see me. I know they aren't thinking anything, but your worst critic is always yourself.
I know that I can do this, that I can reach my goals and be successful and that I am on the right track to get there. I just need to stick with it a little bit better when it isn't easy. I find I have a much easier time during the work week because everything is so scheduled. The weekends around our house are crazy, constantly on the go and eating what you can when you can, it is tough. Gary did say last night that he needs to get in better shape and I asked him to run with me, he wasn't exactly up for that, but I am thinking he is coming around to a healthier view on things. It is easier when he is on board and doesn't want the junk food around.
So I am feeling reinvigorated this week, lets hope it all falls into place. I am thinking that I am not going to hit my 10 pound goal, so I am shooting for 5 now. That is going to require a 2.6 lb loss this week. Still a little more that advised for a week, but I know that if I have a successful weekend it will be in the bag! Good luck sisters on making your goals this month.
On a side note: I have been doing my c25k training on my treadmill, it is just way easier to get the time in because with it being so hot out I would have to wait until late to run and it just doesn't work with my schedule. Anyway the temperatures have been cooling off so last night I decided I really need to get outside to run. It totally kicked my butt. I have run 30 solid minutes on the treadmill and 5 minutes was kicking my butt outside. Has anyone else ever had this happen? I mean I knew it wasn't going to be the same but that big of a difference really threw me for a loop. Anyone have any advise?

Monday, August 23, 2010


Mid-Michigan Old gas Tractor Association. I know, it sounds so fun doesn't it?!? Well I know it might not sound fun, especially to a city girl like me, but we had a blast. Seeing as I am from the city and my husband was raised on a farm we often have a difference of option on what makes for a good time. But being the good little wife that I am I let Gary drag me to the Old Gas Tractor Show. It takes place in Oakley Michigan every year in August. Gary and his Dad take their old tractors down to display and in return get free passes for the weekend.
We headed out there Friday night just in time for the tractor pulls. Now if you are anything like me you have no idea what a tractor pull is all about. I have been watching them for a couple years now and just now figured the whole thing out, well sort of. I get the idea behind it that they are pulling a percentage of the total tractors weight in cement blocks. Even if you (or I) don't exactly get the idea it is fun to watch, people really get into cheering for their puller. We left before they were done, but mostly because we didn't know anyone pulling anymore and it was getting dark and we needed to get Kris home and in bed.
First thing Saturday though, Gary had us up and and dressed and in the truck to go back for day two. We got there before things really started to get going for the day so Kris and I decided it would be a good idea to get some breakfast. We had one of the best pancake breakfasts I have ever had, the only thing that would have been better is if Kris didn't eat my last piece of sausage. After breakfast the flea market opened up and Kris was ready to shop. We looked in all the little shops first and then I let him go back and get a few toys that he liked. He even surprised me and bought me a pretty little butterfly hair clip. After much shopping and somehow losing Gary in the crowd. Kris and I jumped on the "people mover" and took a tour of the whole show. Hundreds of old tractors, even a pink one, and lots of people, campers and displays. We finally found Gary a couple hours later and went to get something for lunch. Gary tried something called ugly fries and I tried a steak pita. We left after that, mostly because we had been there 5 hours, I was somewhat sun burnt and starting to get tired.
We had a great time this weekend though. Gary even had to go back Sunday although I decided to stay home with Kris. Billy spent the whole weekend camping at the show and he came home exhausted on Sunday. It was a lot of fun and I know that we will be back year after year. Now I just need to figure out how to get Gary to be this excited about shopping!

Thursday, August 19, 2010

Weigh In Wednesday Take Two

Ok, so I know that it isn't Wednesday anymore and that the weigh in is officially over but I feel like I need to revise my post from yesterday. So please bear with me.
Starting weight: 210
Week 1: 207.1
Week 2:207.1
Week 3: 206
Total Loss: 4 lbs
Goal for Challenge: 10 lbs
Pounds to go: 6
Yeah! I am down one pound. Yesterday I was not exactly feeling the love of being down, but I spent the day putting my head back on straight and thinking about what an idiot I am. Hello self! A pound is a pound take it. I am very happy about a loss and not a gain. This is great, we are moving in the right direction.
In my defense for my less than stellar attitude yesterday I had a lot happen the day before and was still kinda reeling for the shock. Gary and I each have sons, his is 17, mine is 7. Mine lives with us full time and his lives with his mother. His son, Bill, in the past has lived with us, but about 4 months ago decided that he didn't exactly like our rules and wanted to go stay with his mother. We respected his decision and although he wasn't living with us we still saw him at least 3-4 times a week. We settled into a comfortable routine over the summer with Kris and work and everything that summer brings. NO DRAMA, pure bliss. We have been getting ready for the school year as Bill will be a senior this year and I have been super busy making appointments for senior pictures and new glasses and running around getting him new school clothes, I have been busy to say the least. Everything was set, senior pictures on Wednesday, clothes were ironed, we were ready to go. Then Tuesday afternoon I get a call from Gary that we need to postpone the photos, that Bill had DRAMA at his mothers and that he was moving home. Life spun upside down. I was in shock, first and foremost I was concerned with the drama that had taken place and wanted to make sure that Bill was ok. He may not be my flesh and blood but he is my son. Bill is ok, Gary resolved the drama, and Bill moved back into his room. But life doesn't settle down that easily or that quickly and I am a huge analizer so I am still running everything through my head trying to make heads or tails of it. My mind is trying to come to terms with another person in the house and the rules that need to be put back into effect and making sure that things continue to run smoothly in our house. Anyone that has a teenager can probably atest to the fact that at 17 and a senior they think they have it all figured out.
So I apologize that my head was not on my successful weight loss yesterday and was all tied down with the crasiness of home life. I am excited about lossing a pound, I want to keep doing that as often as I can. Every pound is a success. So please forgive me for being ungrateful, I am back in the game again!

Wednesday, August 18, 2010

Wednesday Check-in Down and Dirty in 30 Week 3

Well another week, another weigh in. I lost a pound this week. I am happy and yet disappointed all at the same time. It is so frustrating to be eating well and working your butt off, literally, and not seeing the scale really move. I should cut myself some slack because I have been noticing that my pants are not so tight and my energy has been much higher. I have been continuing on the C25K training program, but I tend to go until I hit the 3.1 mile distance on my treadmill. It takes me way longer than 30 minutes, but I know that I am increasing my endurance and that makes me feel good. I have now run 30 solid minutes and I was thrilled to get that milestone done.
All in all, I am trying to be positive and I know that a slower weight loss is one that sticks, but still you work so hard and then don't see much of a change and it is kinda disheartening.
Anyway, I hope all the other sisters did great!

Thursday, August 12, 2010

Sign on the dotted line

I did it. I signed up for my first ever 5k run. September 26th at 8:30am. The Capital City River Run. I filled out the form, I signed the check, I put it in the mail with a stamp on it and everything. Done. There is no backing out now. I am registered. And I am excited. I had been kinda putting off registering, self doubt filling me head, but last night Gary asked me when my race was. Honestly I didn't think he was paying attention when I talked about it, so I was shocked to hear him ask me. I said September 26th and he asked if he could come along, to be my cheerleader. If you knew my husband you would know that although he loves me with everything he has, he is not a cheerleader kinda guy. Gary is all tough love, so to have him say that to me I knew that he believed in me, that he knew that I could and would do it and that I better get my registration in.
So I did, I put it in the mail today and I now all I need to do is keep up with my c25k training. I know that I have more than enough time to train and be in good shape going into the race. I can't wait, oh and as a bonus I get a long-sleeved, technical running shirt! Who doesn't love that!?!

Wednesday, August 11, 2010

Weekly Check-In: Down and Dirty in 30 Week 2

It is the second weigh in for the Down and Dirty Challenge and I was really nervous getting on the scale this morning. My weekend totally threw me off and I spent the last couple days trying to pull it all back together. All in all I would say I did ok, I didn't lose like I had hoped, but I didn't gain either and after an open house and a family reunion, not to mention beer, I can't complain about staying the same.
Here are the official numbers:
Starting weight: 210
Week 1: 207.1
Week 2:207.1
Total Loss: 2.9 lbs
Goal for Challenge: 10 lbs
Pounds to go: 7.1
I know that if I would have done better on the eating front then the scale would have moved. So I am even more determined to do well in the next weigh in. Even though my eating leaves something to be desired I have been working really hard in during my workouts. I did take an extra day off on Sunday from any workouts, but otherwise I have been pushing myself and surprising myself with what I can do. I was so nervous last week to have the 20 minute run as part of my c25K training, but I did it. I was so proud of myself when I was done, it was a great feeling. I have also been picking through some of my workout DVD's and trying some new ones. Back in January I won a copy of Bob Greene's Total Body Makeover and I popped that into the DVD player this week. It was a great workout for strengthening and since I had already done my cardio for the day I was super warmed up and limber. I totally felt it the next day, it was more of a tenderness to the muscles as opposed to being sore. Last night I grabbed a DVD I had gotten from my neice, it was Kim Kardashian's Fit in Your Jeans by Friday workout. Not something I would have picked off the shelf at the store, but I am glad I tried it. Again I was already warmed up from a 2 mile run but this time I could really feel the muscles working when I did the squats and lunges. I am feeling it today as well.
This weekend the boys are all going out of town and I have the whole house to myself. I am beyond excited about it. I never get to be home alone and I am looking forward to it, but I am glad it is only for a weekend, I start to miss them after a couple days. Anyway I am excited to see what the scale will show next week when I don't have any help to get derailed over the weekend. Gary loves to have dinner out on Friday nights and he loves to eat at greasy spoon kinda restaurants, so it will be nice to see what happens when I don't eat out or at open houses or family reunions! Good luck to everyone this week! And way to go to those of you that lost, I am totally jealous!

Tuesday, August 10, 2010

True Confession Tuesday

True Confessions

Ok, it is time to confess. I had a rough weekend, eating wise anyway. I ended up taking Friday off of work and spending the whole day with my little Kristopher. So we went out to lunch at a Mexican buffet and we ate......a lot. If only my transgressions ended there this story would be over and not so bad, but alas it doesn't. Saturday Gary, Kris and I decided to take a quad ride. We rode down to the little family bar and Kris had a burger and fries and Gary and I split some fries and some beer. Still not awful, but then we went home, put Kris to bed and continued to have a couple more beers. Forget about getting back on track on Sunday, it was a family reunion. Hotdogs, potato salad, blackberry dessert. It was so good, but so bad for me! All in all it was not a great weekend for eating right. I didn't get any exercise in, although I did think about it a couple of times. I was just so busy enjoying my family that I was selfish and didn't want to spend anytime doing anything truly good for me. I was enjoying being with Kris and Gary and spending a weekend just being together. I could have spent my time a little better, watched a little less T.V., taken a walk, but snuggling under the covers watching a movie with Kris was so much more appealing than anything else.
But I am back at work and back on track. I am on Wk6D2 of the c25k training and actaully looking forward to the 25 minute run at the end of the week. Lets hope this weekend doesn't through me too far off at tomorrow's weigh in.

Thursday, August 5, 2010


Just a few updates. First I did C25K Wk5D2 last night. 8 minute run, 5 minute walk another 8 minute run. The first 8 minutes kinda kicked my butt, but that totally could have been because Kristopher followed me down stairs and talked the whole time, I finally had to kick him out of the room. He was less than impressed with that, but after he left and I could concentrate on not answering his never ending questions the second 8 minutes was easier. Mind you I said easier not easy. I wanted to quit at about 7 minutes but I knew that if I could do 7 minutes I could do 8 and that I would feel disappointed if I didn't push myself to finish it. I felt really good when I was done, sweaty and gross, but good.
Secondly when I was playing with the idea of doing a 5k and was searching out the internet for information and races and all that jazz I remember getting a flier in the mail from Kris' school that they were having a 5k to benefit a local teenager August 7th. That was the clincher for me. I thought hey this is the race I want to train for and it is local and this must be a sign that I can do this. So I was all set and I started training and then my sister called to tell me that the annual Juvenile Diabetes walk was the 7th at the same time. Well since my nephew has juvenile diabetes and diabetes in general runs in my family that has always been a huge cause of ours and I knew that my place needed to be in Lansing Michigan for the walk. Well life happened in the mean time and yesterday my sister emailed me to let me know that our team was not going to be doing the walk this year. So not only am I no longer walking for diabetes research I am too late to sign up for the 5k, besides the fact that I have not trained enough yet. So kinda disappointing all the way around. I have decided though that I will be getting up early Saturday morning and doing my c25k training in honor of the juvenile diabetes research foundation and I will still send my donation check in. I figure that is a good way to support both my causes, and I will definitely be at the Farm Fest this weekend where the race takes place and make a donation to that cause too seeing as though they didn't get my registration money and I like to support local causes, especially when it is for kids.
Finally, my next day of training has me running 20 minutes without walking. Yikes, this seems a little intimidating to me. Wish me luck. I know that if I set my mind to it I can do it. I just need to make sure Kris isn't talking to me when I am running, lol. Oh and that my shoes are tied tighter than last night, I spent half my run watching my shoelace to make sure it didn't come undone and trip me up.

Wednesday, August 4, 2010

Weekly Check-In: Down and Dirty in 30 Week 1

What a great start to the challenge. I really needed this little kick in the butt to get back in gear. Thank you, thank you, thank you to my team the Queens of the D&D! It was a huge help to me to have a team out there depending on me.
Starting weight: 210
Week 1: 207.1
Total Loss: 2.9 lbs
Goal for Challenge: 200
Pounds to go: 7.1
I am really excited. This is a great start and I really needed to get back on track. I was slowly slipping the wrong way on the scale and hating it. My lowest weight was around 170 and I would love to get back there. This is a great kick off to that goal. I am so pumped. I have gotten back to my c25K training, week 5 day 2, 8 minutes runs, OMG! What scares me more than that is a 20 minute run by the end of the week. But I did meet a huge goal this week already, I ran/walked 3 miles Monday. It felt great, and it happened kinda by accident. I got on the treadmill to do my c25k and when I was done with the intervals, I felt so good I wanted to add another one, the next thing I knew I had hit 3 miles. I know that it isn't good to go beyond the training guidelines and I won't push the envelope that far again, but I think for my personal moral I needed to show myself that I could do it. To get beyond the fear. It was a very empowering experience. I find myself actually getting almost excited to do a run now. I mean there is still that little bit of dread that oh gosh I am going to sweat and smell bad and be tired, but the feeling of accomplishment when I am done is awesome.
I have also started backing my lunch and snacks for work so that I can be sure to have something good for me, or at least not fast food, and I can track things much better when I take time to measure. Thank goodness for summer and fresh veggies too. I was just complaining to my sister on Sunday that I wished I had planted a garden this year cause the cucumbers are coming in and I hate to buy them when if I had planted them I would have more than I could stand right about now. Wouldn't you know it if I didn't get a bag from Kris' grandma and then today I got some more from a friend of mine. Yeah!!
So how was yuor week?! do tell! And make sure to check out how the rest of the sisterhood did.

Monday, August 2, 2010


For a little while now I have been suffering from the blues. Not exactly sad, just in a funk. It is kind of awful to be going through, just that icky feeling that you can't shake. But I have found a cure. Laughter. Laughter is the best medicine. I had a friend call me today that always makes me laugh. It is a work friend and we coordinate jobs together. I laughed so hard I had tears in my eyes. It was wonderful. It put a smile on my face for the rest of the morning. It helped put the little irksome things that bother me into perspective. I needed that call more than anything today and I am happy to know that I have a friend out there that can bring that to me when I am struggling.
I think this Monday was harder than usual because I had had such a great weekend. I spent the entire weekend with my husband. For the first time in over 6 months we actually sat and watched a movie together that we both enjoyed. Gary is not one to watch a movie much less enjoy it. We went out to dinner together, we went shopping (ok so it was Home Depot), we fixed Sunday breakfast. It was a nice weekend and then yesterday afternoon I got to pick Kris up from his Dad's. It was awesome. We meet at a park half way between our house's and Kris came running down the sidewalk yelling, "Mom, Mom your here, I missed you." I loved it. He hadn't done that is a long time. He is mellowing in his "old" age (all of 7 and a half) and I loved hearing him call me from across the park, he couldn't wait to jump in my arms for a hug. So you can see why it was so hard to leave my sleeping husband and son and come to work to face another Monday. But laughter, laughter makes it all better.
Thank heavens for friends!
And on a completely unrelated note I got a new scale today for the new challenge. I am pretty excited, it logs your last weight and tells you how much you have lost. Pretty nifty I think. I was so excited I went into the store and bought it and opened it while still in the parking lot, which was a good thing because the scale on the outside was not what was on the inside. So I had to go back in an exchange it for the right one. Which of course they were out of, so I got to upgrade. Pretty cool if you ask me. Hopefully the 2 mile run I put in last night and the shred that I am planning for tonight, help to make the numbers on it go down!

Sunday, August 1, 2010

Down and Dirty

Ahhhh, the challenge at the Sisterhood starts today. My challenge started this morning when I couldn't get into my regular email. So I apologize to anyone who emailed me and thinks that I am not responding. Also I have my horrible dial-up internet today and I am forced to use my husbands laptop computer, it is not my favorite keyboard, I spend more time hitting backspace than any other key lol.
Anyway I wanted to make sure I got on and blogged today so that my weigh-in would be out there for the 9:00 deadline tonight.
Starting Weight: 210
Goal: 200
Here we go down and dirty in 30. I am very excited to be starting a new challenge and also to be doing it with a team. I am one of those people that does better when other people are depending on me. Good luck to everyone, this should really be fun.
I have to run and get my shred in for the day before I get to busy with the usual Sunday cleaning, scrubbing and running around. Good Luck Everyone